I want to get a BlackBerry.

Never mind it’s the last thing I really need. I’m a stay-at-home, home schooling mom. I spend a lot of time here with my laptop within reach, so easy to check the inbox when ever I want. Aren’t those email devices for people always on the go, running to catch a plane or stuck in traffic? The only thing I’ve run to catch lately is a toddler and the last time I found myself stuck in traffic, I was on the way home from vacation.

But I still want one.

I think it’s because I want to feel more important, more part of the outside world. Mothering would be transformed into a exciting life with a BlackBerry tucked in my purse. I like the tiny keypad too. What brilliant emails I could craft with a nifty BlackBerry.

That’s the difficult part of being a stay-at-home mom, watching Doc leave the house everyday. I can stay in my pajamas all day, and no one cares. Part of me misses the rushing out-the-door thing, having a place to go. Now I go for days without leaving the house. It’s isolating, this raising kids gig. A person with a BlackBerry is a multi-tasker, a gal on the go, with a knack for having fun. At least, I believe she is.

So I want the BlackBerry. Just because.